I reached for a part of me today
And realized at some point it slipped away;
And then someone I once dearly knew
Shoved me down to say "we're through."
And then I thought of all the friends I'd lost
Wondering if my principles were worth the cost;
But this self-doubt just chipped away
The part of me I'd built today.
And since my value's been in decline
I'm in anguish why no one invests in mine;
When that's what all the books would say,
We read the same ones, but not the same way.
Which makes it hard to be good to them
But I try, and do, except with flaws they condemn.
Because the resources aren't there to overdeliver,
To be able to give that, I would need a giver;
Or a stronger heart, what I used to use
Until it ran out of strength, now it's just a big bruise.
So I borrowed to get it resuscitated
Selling off a part I thought I hated;
But now those flaws I find were holding up
The part of me I couldn't give up,
And now time invisibly whisks away
The part of me I hold today.
My life, it vanishes before my eyes
And there's no one near to hear my cries
They all despised my asking for some help up
I had too much potential to screw it all up.
So all the failure belongs to me
And that's the best teacher to make the blind see
Except that teacher beats away
The part of me I need today.
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